defrost yourself

chris left today. jared left wednesday night.

i've said by to my brothers before this, but this is the first time in a really long time when i'm the one staying home. the majority of the things i love to do include them. the majority of my favorite memories include them.

i hope i never have to witness another today ever again. watching april let go of chris was one of the most beautiful, horrible things ever. two people so clearly made for each other, married for only six months, finally enjoying life with the one.....only to be separated. but she's not the only one, fathers holding babies only a few weeks old, mothers saying bye to infant children....it's sad. and yet, i couldn't help but feel even sadder for the few who seemed to have no one to cry with at their departure...no one crying over their coming absence.

all the emotions of the day were channeled through a craft session resulting in a new bracelet, headband, ring, and ideas for a few more accessories. i feel like i'm defrosting. the experience and emotional overload have left me quite numb to many thoughts, people, and things going on around me. i hope that this next month of traveling continues the defrosting process and not the opposite.

haha, how many people return from a year in egypt to defrost?